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| February 2010 Angel Fairy Goddess Newsletter WHAT’S INSIDE THIS NEWSLETTER Personal Update Giving Birth to the Feminine A Message about Upcoming Courses and Angel Readings My Angel Wish for You PERSONAL UPDATE In the December newsletter I let you know that I had cut back on class and angel reading offerings “due to changes in my energy levels.” Since then, I let only a few of you who contacted me directly know that my energy levels and ability to concentrate went down because I was in my first trimester of pregnancy. (I made many administrative mistakes in the last three months which may have affected you. I apologize.) Having passed the genetic screening tests with flying colors in spite of my age (I’m 40) I am ready now to go public with my pregnancy. This week begins my 19th week. The second trimester is much easier than the first. Ultrasound photos show that it is a boy. My due date is July 8. The angels have been telling me for several months that I would be going through a significant change in consciousness. They let me know that the writing of my spiritual memoirs is in their minds equivalent to giving birth to a child and that both of these events would bring about the change in my consciousness they are working on. Those of you who took the spiritual memoir writing class know that by piecing together angel messages around soul themes leads to deeper understanding of not only your life purpose but also the soul lessons you are working on which repeat themselves over time. For me coming into the feminine more fully than before is bringing me great and deep peace. I can not recall a time in my life when I have felt so deeply satisfied. Most of my worries have left me. I am calm. Those of you who know me well know that I am a graduate of Wellesley College, the top liberal arts college in the country. I took their feminist teachings to heart. I desired equal economic status to men. This was what my ego wanted. My soul wanted something else and has led me to embrace the feminine at work and at home. Following the needs of my soul has made me happy and full of peace something a PhD, a masters degree, a bigger paycheck or a larger title could not give me. Trust the spiritual principals of love over all. Abandon competitive ways. Do not compare yourself to others. Trust the angelic guidance that you receive and I promise you will experience deep peace. The angels told me that there would be an epilogue to my spiritual memoirs and that it would be about the baby. I have decided to start the first draft of this chapter here in this newsletter not only as an illustration of what I teach in the spiritual memoir class, and thereby inspire you to keep track of those angel message that you receive over time and to start writing about them, but also share with you the evolution that brought about this change in me. I of course write about timing and seasons as I am a true believer in the 10-year life cycle and that change happens in divine time which using numerology you can predict with some accuracy. Here is the first draft for you to consider: GIVING BIRTH TO THE FEMININE Between 2005 and 2008 several of my students predicted that I would become a mother. At the time I was going through a romantic crisis which healed by the spring of 2008. I recall two of these messages told me I would have a boy. When I received these messages I discounted them telling my readers that I did not plan to become pregnant and convinced myself that their messages were inaccurate. Readings I had received during my romantic crisis told me that my husband would love our child or children more than me and this scared me at the time as I very much needed romantic love in order to heal myself. Over time, the angels gradually changed my perception of these angel messages and healed my fears. In June 2008 once the romantic healing had settled in, I dreamt that I came across an ugly abandoned girl on the side of the road. I took her home with me. My husband, to my surprise, took an active interest in taking care of her. He thought carefully about her, her needs. Once inside of our home, I was suspicious. I was not sure that I wanted to keep her. As she got older, her hair became blonde instead of dark. She had a brother in the dream. As I got to know these children better, my confidence level in keeping them increased. My husband cared for them deeply, showed interest, and participated. At this point in the dream I woke up suddenly. This was probably provoked by the angels so that I could remember and document the dream. I did not understand the dream. I turned out to be a premonition of events to come. In August 2008 my very close spiritual girlfriend Shaheen gave birth to a boy. She was just a few years older than 40. This was very significant for me because we had bonded for years over our fears of becoming mothers. Watching my friend overcome her fears and use spirituality to embrace becoming a mother at a mature age inspired and motivated me. I turned 39 in August 2008. Frightened of becoming too old to become pregnant, my husband and I agreed to go off birth control. I read a fertility book and began to chart my fertility signs. Within a few weeks two spiritual girlfriends upon greeting me asked me if I was pregnant. I said no. The feeling for them of the events to follow were so strong it felt to them as if I was already pregnant. In September 2008 the angels told me that I was going through a rebirth, breaking away from old forms of being, developing a much stronger nurturing side. They showed me that if I choose to become pregnant that I would get a new set of angels that would guide me. I was given the symbol of a white cat sitting at my feet which I now believe to be a symbol of this new way of being, coming into more of the feminine. To my surprise I become pregnant quickly in October. I felt the soul merge with me very strongly the day of ovulation. I emotionally withdrew from others and nested. I quickly calculated that the baby would be born in mid June or early July and would be a cancer baby, the most emotionally sensitive of all the signs. I was told that she would be sensitive and intuitive and would need my coaching. The angels told me that the soul was a headstrong, funny girl with fairy energy, was spiritually evolved, and like me came from Venus. She would also be extremely intelligent, more intelligent than me. This scared me a little. Four weeks later I miscarried. The angels said this happened because I was unsure of what I wanted to create. I had been a temporary holding place for a soul who needed nurturing. She had moved on. This saddened me. In November the angels told me that my day job (working at Cisco) was integrating with my night job (teaching angel healing, practicing angel readings, writing my spiritual memoirs, creating angel- visualization CDs). By integrating these two worlds, I was learning how merge my passion and creativity with structure. I was given a symbol to help me understand this in the form of a box with the lid blown off and passionate love bursting out of the top of the box. This, the angels told me, would be my new way of being. Worried about the consequences of the miscarriage, the angels told me that it did not matter what I chose, integrating my two forms of work or becoming pregnant. Both would lead to the same change in consciousness they were working on in me. The angels encouraged me to follow my passions. If I did choose to become a parent, they explained that this would dominate my focus and shift my career. They then explained to me that the angel messages around the baby would become the epilogue to my spiritual memoir. In December 2009 the angels gave me the message that whatever child I gave birth to would be a soul that had chosen both myself and my husband. The soul would have female energy and could be either a girl or a boy. By becoming a parent my husband would heal his narcissism and his heart would open and he would embrace his softer side as he learned how to love something other than himself in the way that he was not loved. In April 2009 the angels told me that there was a baby coming, and old soul. As I cared for the baby, my husband would watch the two of us with admiration and would love me in a new way. By taking care of something that is needy and lovable, my husband would be giving himself permission to take care of the part of himself which needs love. Like me, my husband was about to go through a shift. In May 2009 the angels explained that the next phase for me was one of a mature wise soul experiencing totally peace and that reaching this was not very far away. I was developing the capacity to love myself in a way that I have never before in any other lifetime achieved nor thought was possible. In June 2009 the angels told me that my husband and I were getting closer to each other and relying much more on each other. On the day before, the day of, and the day after Solstice 2009 (June 20, 21, 22) I sobbed uncontrollably and did not know why. I felt like my relationship with my husband was a risk. These feelings eventually left me but I didn’t understand why I cried so hard. In July 2009 a mother and fairy friend of mine received the message that I cried over Solstice because I was morning the miscarried of the headstrong fairy-girl from Venus. I did not realize until October that June 21st was her birthday (Almost 38 weeks from inception in October 2008). The angels confirmed this with angel chills. In August 2009 I turned 40. I stopped charting my fertility signs and the start dates of my menstrual cycle giving up on the idea that I would get pregnant naturally. My husband told me to go with the flow and to refrain from trying to control the outcome. The summer of 2009 the angels put me on an assignment to study gender differences. (I need to go back and recall all of the occurrences that lead up to this). I learned a lot and concluded that one of the reasons women feel emotionally disconnected from men is because many men, especially very masculine ones (the kind I’m attracted to) are very afraid of emotions. When a man shares his emotions with a woman, the feelings are extremely intense for him and it makes him feel like he is falling in love. Understanding this helped me understand why my husband can not be emotionally intimate with me all the time. That summer my husband demonstrated to me more than once his sincere desire to be involved in a loving family. My trust levels in pursuing pregnancy began to increase. In September 2009 the angels told me that if people at work came to me offering me new forms of work to pursue them. A few weeks later I experienced angel chills while on a phone call with a manager of change management in sales operations who asked me if I might be interested in moving into her group. Knowing how important it is to follow the angels’ guidance I said yes even though I had never considered change management as a career choice prior to this. I trusted the angels’ guidance. In October 2009 a student specializing in mediumship told me that I was drawing a blonde-blue eyed boy to me. I totally dismissed his reading not believing that I would become pregnant again. One week later, I visited my husband in Dresden Germany while he was on a business trip. Just before becoming physically intimate with my husband, I saw Archangel Michael clearly and strongly. I suspected something was going to happen. I suspected I would be pregnant but was still disbelieving. Five weeks later I confirmed that I had become pregnant. October was the same month I had become pregnant the year before. I had drawn another cancer baby to me. I wondered about its personality and its sex. This time the pregnancy stuck. I meditated on the fact that the child that stayed with me came the year that I turned 40. In my spiritual memoir, I explain that the first ten years of my adult life (ages 19 – 28 / years 1988 - 1997) I studied and used angel healing to heal myself and others. The next ten years of my adult life (ages 29 – 38 / years 1998 – 2007), I studied and used past life regression therapy to heal myself and others. I predicted that the next ten years of my life (39 – 48 / 2008 – 2017) would be about creative self expression. I did not realize that in fact the next ten years would be about becoming a mother and embracing and integrating the feminine in me. Morning sickness set in mid November. I worried about the career choices that I faced: give up angel work, cut back at Cisco, quit altogether? The first trimester made me physically and emotionally weak. I had trouble deciding. In December 2009 the angels told me that my job was to focus on being a mother. My baby needed calm and promised me that the baby would bring me more of what I wanted. The angels said that the soul was a boy with a feminine side. (Prior to December more than one person incorrectly predicted that it was a girl like the one I attracted the year before; these readings were looking at my desires more than at the soul of the child with me.) In spite of my morning sickness, I settled into my new job with ease. I work primarily with women who are old than me, are sophisticated, intuitive, creative, emotionally supportive and hard working. I no longer worked in a dry, competitive, engineering culture. Once the morning sickness left me, in January, I was confident that I wanted to return to work after giving birth. In January 2009 my husband told me he was looking for a job that would allow him to be at home more often to help me with the baby. The shift in our relationship I so much desired was happening without me forcing it to. In February 2009 the detailed ultrasound clearly showed the genitals of the child I’m carrying and it’s definitely a boy. My husband’s heart is opening widely. Right now our working name for the child is Brix Leon. While watching the “Making of Sex and the City” on HBO this week I got chills when the actress who plays Carrie says that for the girls on the show (I’m paraphrasing): “the meaning of their life is about relationships with each other, the girlfriends. The men in their lives are an extension of their relationships with the girlfriends.” This, the angels tell me, is true for me as well. Epilogue: I encourage you to jot down the angel messages you receive. Do not go into fear if a message does not make sense to you. Collect the messages over time. Examine how they fit into a bigger picture at work on your soul. Write about it. Sign up for the first class of the Spiritual Memoir Class that I offer so that you can learn how to do this yourself. http://www.angelfairygoddess.com/YourLifePlan.html A MESSAGE ABOUT UPCOMING COURSES AND ANGEL READINGS So now you know, my attention has shifted to being pregnant, taking care of my body, preparing for birth, preparing to be a mother. I currently have no plans to create anything new at this point, new classes or new CDs. I am committed to working on my memoirs. I am actively supporting students who are enrolled in my correspondence courses. I am in the second trimester now and feel great. If you ask, I will do a phone or email reading for you until I get tired again. I reposted my rates on my website. MY ANGEL WISH FOR YOU I love you all. I wish that you embrace the love of the angels, trust their guidance, and know with confidence that once on the spiritual path, only good can come about. You deserve love. You deserve peace. Be open to the mysteries of the universe and especially the messages from the angels. They will show you how to open to more love so that you can experience more peace in forms which you may previously not allow yourself to embrace. With Deep and Angelic Love, Britt Nesheim Contact: britt@angelfairygoddess.com |
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